I AM NOT AN IDIOT! I am not ugly or stupid or worthless or any of the others that I'm daily reminded of. There is no way to become "immune" to hurt. You can pretend to be. Locking it all away into the darkest, smallest, more obscure closet in your heart. But it's there nonetheless. Poking at you and pricking you with daily reminders. They want me to fail, they want me to be hurt, and they want me to give up, surrender. I can't live like this. I am breaking. I'm hurting. And I'm sick and tired. I will not give up, I will stand strong, I will not give up, I will not give up, I will not give up...I'm groping on the edge of a canyon, the rocks are biting into my fingers as I struggle to get my feet back on steady ground. I am praying for a miracle, a superior strength to rescue me. IDIOT! You're worthless... you mean nothing... you're stupid, you're ugly, no one cares, just give up, you are nothing........HELP!!! God give me the strength! I can't do this alone! Please rescue me from this! I need you... please......... Don't give up my precious daughter, I love you more than you can ask or imagine. You are my jewel, my most precious treasure, and I love you with an undying love that you cannot fathom. You were created in My own image, and you are beautiful. You are mine. I am on your side and with Me you can never fail..................................
...... No one cares about you, no one loves you, you're stupid, worthless, idiot...why don't you accept it.... everyone knows it's true... even you... NO! NO! It's not true! God give me strength! I'm struggling under this burden!!!...... I am here, and I love you soooooo much... Let me bandage your wounds for you, let me pick you up and carry you, let me take you to a higher ground, a resting place, everything is alright now. I'm here my daughter, I love you...You don't need to worry, I'm here...for always and forever :)