Why does it always come back? Why can't I be better once and for all? How can I feel almost normal for a while and then it manages to creep back into my life...It's not fair... Is this what the rest of my life is going to be like? A constant struggle... Why does it have to be me? Will it ever be gone for good? Why won't it stay away if I pray? Everytime I think it's over, but it comes back... worse....... Why isn't this working?